A Quick Moment

I had no intention of posting this morning. In fact even though for the past two evenings I have been working past midnight and like this morning up at 6am. I read a post from Dave that really bothered me and before I embark on what will be another busy day I need take a moment for myself and let it all spill.

My grandfather died of bleeding ulcers and I've been freaking out because this is the third bout of pains in my stomach that I've experienced. I may have blogged about it at Christmas, I'm not sure - but I went to the country thinking it was the flu. Then the pains returned in early Jan while I was on the road and I was sure it was lactose intolerance. I was driving around, making my calls and doubled over in my car. So bad, I pulled over to a mall, went in and bought some lactaid in a desperate attempt to curb the pangs of pain. Then it hit me again on Saturday, again I reviewed my dairy intake...Sigh. I'm questioning my stress. I've made my doctors appointment. I don't feel as much scared as I do just hyper protective of anxiety levels.

I mentioned I met someone. He's a widower, his wife died of breast cancer three years ago and he has two beautiful daughters. I can say that having a glimmer of love has been nice though....So we'll see how that goes.

Back to my tummy. Work stress is all self imposed. The truth is all I want is to make ends meet and I know I will get there sooner by putting one foot in front of the other. I did an annual financial forecast, so I know exactly where things are at, and where I am going. The last thing I needed was the car accident - but when I'm too busy to write about the third frickin kid driving his/her daddy's car putting me at the receiving end and missing work, dealing with police, grr..I didn't even get to write about his lie.....*huff*

Omar? He was SUPER tied last night, because the night before I told him he could read for 5 mins in bed. I went downstairs, began working and lost track of time. An HOUR LATER he came down with a proud smile on his face (I freak out inside that he's still awake), but he's so happy he finished all 128 pages of his book. I congratulate him and tuck him back into bed, now feeling ashamed that I didn't follow up with him on time...ANYWAY...Last night he turned into bitchy boy and argued and argued with me about wanting to rip out something that was glued to his homework book (had he actually tried to rip it off the page, it would have ruined the work)...ANYWAY...grr...he insisted even after I told him it was fine, just to leave it...not normal behaviour for him...then I remembered about the late night....Long story short, I made it float, but it involved putting a cap on the whole deal and putting him to bed at 8:30...Now I expect to go upstairs and wake up a brand new child.

I send out my love in all directions.

Perhaps I'll take a moment tonight before I head out with my girlfriend to play a little tag. ;)

If anyone needs to be inspired, check out what Dave's been up to.

Cheers,
Me

The Crush

The concept of “Crush” has been mentioned at least a half dozen times in my blog, not as in what you would do if you found an earwig in your sleeping bag, in which case I would be crushing with a vengeance. I talked about the fear of crushing a kid's spirit, or feeling crushed and my first crush to name a few.

Then there's "The Crush" of all crushes, the crushendo of crush, the affectionate kind, as in that someone who you don't even know, but look forward to seeing, hearing from, that person who brightens your day, that guy or gal who might look your way, talk to you in the elevator (or in this case updates his/her Blog or leaves a comment) and somehow, makes life even that little bit better. Imagine that! If I weren't so EXHAUSTED, I could begin to delve into the levels of crushicity, C1 - C10 that determine the dedication and devotion (or infatuation) of one's crush...Perhaps for another time....

So, to have Ms. Sizzle declare today “REVEAL YOUR CRUSH” day, definitely caught my attention as someone who believes that crushes are an integral part of life! Not to mention that I think honesty and a good healthy dose of admittance beit private or public are good for one's soul. This was EASY for me, having already announced my crushtitude in

October. Apparently, I have good taste... as “groupie status” as it may be. I profess my crush once again.

All hail Dave! Thanks for being a model crush.

Others who have spread the love by exposing their Blog Crushes:

Ms. Sizzle
Sparktacular
Kapgar
RunJenRun
Sandra
Hilly

Thanks for the fun idea!

Before I go, I feel it necessary to include my buddy who is no stranger to the "Girl Crush" and who I think is perfectly crushable material...Check her out! zamphir panflutemaster